Ok so I have trouble planning for the future because I often feel disconnected from myself and overwhelmed by intense emotions and reactions, but a caravan on a piece of land looks accessible enough even from me.

Still living with my parents in a very beautiful place already in the countryside, and I don’t know if this desire of moving out is coming from a real necessity or from the fake thought that it might actually finally “solve my problems”…

What I notice is that when I’m out of home I usually just feel better for whatever reason: more stable, no doomscrolling on the internet, less dissociation, less debilitating thoughts, I just generally feel better.

As long as I can have food and a shelter, and I’m outdoors, perhaps with animals, I generally feel “good enough”. i don’t care about having a lot of stuff, and I genuinely feel that I would feel better without an internet connection at all, I can also drop my car as long as I can reach basic necessities with my bike, I don’t care about traveling or money, status or career, as long as I can do something good for myself and others, I feel happy.

So I would love to know if you have some experience with this kind of life, if it ended up suiting you, if you just felt like me in the past and if the only constant in your life is chaos, or if all of this is just a fake dream… I don’t wanna do all of this just to say “oh, there we go again”, and realize to late that I’m not actually making improvements from my current condition.

. I love my family, and if I could I would make all the changes I dream about here around them, but they have their opinions and interests of course, so I kinda feel stuck, despite all…

Generally looking for insights more from a psychological point of view.